Tumblr Project

I'm starting a new project on tumblr.  Simple and sweet; I'm trying to document every new thing I learn every day.  Open for anyone to follow and experience versus my blogspot that's shared only to my dearest friends...

... of course, it could never go in depth as my lovely blog that I plan on continuing to utilize as a cup to catch the spills of my most deep inner thoughts.

FYI: Check the links above.

Just the Opposite

You're mind set is stuck here; while mine is just the opposite.

You'll be the one who goes to their amazing job to earn an amazing amount of income for a not so amazing family if you do find one willing to be second priority.  You'll be the one who will get married when things are stable and when money permits to and you will probably sign a prenuptial agreement to assure that things are fair.  You'll be the one who will go out and do incredible things by means of your own without any help whatsoever.  You're going to follow your dreams and not let anyone hold you back.  You don't want depend on anyone and you don't want anyone depeding on you.

You're mind set is stuck here; while mine is just the opposite.

I'll be the one who schedules my hours of work to maximize the spending time I have with my family and they will be my first priority.  I'll be the one to get married when love permits and I will be reckless with money, sometimes.  I don't need a document to know how much I love somebody and to recognize my personal achievements because in the end everything turn out fair if you weigh out the finances and love.  I'll acheive my dreams without any doubt, however, not alone but with all the friendships and relationships I've created.  I will do the same in return for anybody else.  I'll let people hold me back if they can't keep up cause I want them there with me in the end.  I depend on people and people depend on me because I depend on love to keep me going.

You're mind set is stuck here; while mine is just the opposite.

I will not hold you back from your dreams anymore but please, don't you ever dare string me along or pull me forward when I'm not ready to step ahead and leave everything behind.  I walk together, not alone.

You're mind set is stuck here; while mine is just the opposite.

For your information:

I may be wrong in what I've said, but from the way you've brushed my shoulder, this is how I see you now... That's probably why I was so attracted to you, because you do amazing things.

Poison

I never sent it, I don't think I could ever treat you the same way as you have done to me. Anyways, for some odd reason, you're always welcome in my life despite the shit you've put me through and continue to.

... and if you read this; get your life together. Fuck.

Everyone has their poison... what's yours?

Sunrise Realization

Ever wake up early enough to watch the sunrise by yourself? Beautiful,
absolutely incredible. It's different individually in comparison to
watching it with a companion. Beautiful thoughts come out of beautiful
sights.

"Find the good in people"

It's a new day.
--
Sent from Jared's Awesome T-Mobile Sidekick®

The Last

Quite possibly the last parking decal I'll ever receive for Cal Poly...

... hence the count down begins.

... I'm kind of sad.

*tear*
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Sent from Jared's Awesome T-Mobile Sidekick®

Five Fingers

Have you ever played five fingers? The rules are simple, you hold up five fingers and everyone in the circle goes around and says something that they've never done; and if you have done it, you must put your finger down. The last person to keep all five fingers up wins the game.

Unfortunately, this metaphor of a tale will only require my own personal truths:

I'm currently holding five fingers up. I'm on top of my game as they stand tall and proud. Then I see you walk into this game and my walls immediately break down as you come into the picture. It's just the two of us left as you utter those unbareable words... I've never.

I've never been completely open to you...

I have always been completely open to you and to everybody around me. I've spoken my feelings and emotions to you countless times and wondered if you could actually tell me something interesting in return. I don't think I can ever shut you out, slam the doors, or close my books on you; I'll leave everything out in the open. My heart drops as I notice your five fingers continue standing tall; you shut me out of your life.

I've never regretted anything I've said...

Saying that I've never regretted telling you absolutely everything would be a lie on my part; so another finger goes down as I'm left with three. I feel like I'm building a wall between us rather than breaking them down. Every word I speak adds another brick, harder cement, and more resistance between us. I regret it all, telling you my secrets and dispensing my advice on your life to help you. My heart drops as I notice your five fingers continue standing tall; you don't regret telling me that it wasn't going to work out and you don't regret hurting me.

I've never told you anything that I didn't mean...

I didn't mean what I had just said; I didn't mean that I regret it, in actuality I'm completely thankful for it; I'm left with two. I'm thankful for telling you everything, for boosting your ego, and giving you my all because now you know just how much potential I have and that you may lose if I'm broken; and that in fact I did mean. My heart drops as I notice your five fingers continue standing tall; so you really meant it, you don't think it's going to work out.

I've never thought that it was the right time for us...

I've always thought that it was the right time. Maybe I was wrong but saying that I've never thought that it was the right time wouldn't make me completely honest; all I have is one now. I'm being completely honest now, I still think it's the right time. My heart drops as I notice your five fingers continue standing tall; so you never thought it was the right time us and as stated before, you really meant it.

I've never wanted to be with you and I don't want to be with you...

My heart hits the bottom shattered in pieces all over the floor. I believe it's pretty self explanatory. Hesitant to bring my last finger down, I have no choice in this game of truth. So now my eyes are tightly shut closed and my hand is clenched in the form of a fist; sad, mad, angry, depressed, frustrated, and tense....

Slowly but surely, my arm relaxes and my fist and eyes are opened to the realization of past times being over.

I utter a fake smile.

"I'm out of fingers... I guess I lost."

Then you look at me with compassionate, pitiful, and sorrowful eyes about the mistakes you've done and how you wish you could undo the past. Your eyes say it all; they never lie to me and in that single instant you've somehow managed to pick up all the pieces and put it together.

"Here, I only have four fingers left but you can borrow some of mine"

You interlock fingers with me as I think to myself, I lost the game, but I think I won your heart in the end.

My hand does wonders; please clasp my hand, hold it softly, and never let it go. Everything will be a-ok.

Secret Language

GMQ QVXGM BMCCH GMQ LVE NQ IQG, TDG IE NCXUL UVE PXCAQY GMQ YKJMG ECD UQPG.  GYLY XIE OLY OTOZD QZVG XIEL QOLW VIEHG VI WYKV WX GYOLV.  U SMTW JMG YUPP ZW CLCUI CIQ TMPPUREJ POCJ.  SDVP HCMVXWK KDEWR.

...  UKGW MXH OMZH WSOH

I hope you understand what I'm going through and what I went through.

Matured

...  I can't believe it took me this long to realize it.

Recycling Thoughts

I'm kind of tired of hearing you talk about the same thing all the time.  Whenever you talk about it, if its not something good its something bad, if its not something sad its something happy, if its not something negative its something positive, if its not something frustrating its something comforting... you've seen all sides of the situation and despite all the things that bother you the fact is that you continue to think about it. Call me crazy but if you've stuck through it and thought about it this long then maybe that tells you that you're willing to commit to it...  with all the times I hear you complain or rejoice about "it," it's enough for me to believe that you do in fact like "it;" both good and bad things...  you know those are the perfect ingredients to maintain a healthy... nevermind; you'll have to figure it out on your own.  That's just me though... I honestly think it's... inevitable.

Redefining the Masses

Problem:

Where is starts:

beau⋅ty

    [byoo-tee]  Show IPA

–noun, plural -ties.

1.	the quality present in a thing or person that gives intense pleasure or deep satisfaction to the mind, whether arising from sensory manifestations (as shape, color, sound, etc.), a meaningful design or pattern, or something else (as a personality in which high spiritual qualities are manifest).

Not once does it say that beauty is something "smaller, thinner, fuller, softer, longer, bigger, lighter..."  Not once does it say that beauty is light skinned, blue eyes, long hair, or thick lips.

Don't ever try to imitate another person's image because of what you may think is "beautiful."  Remember, beauty is matching your percieved self with your ideal self which may be completely different from your actual self.  It is your self, not theirs.

Don't let another's perception of beauty define yours; don't let them define your life.  It's your life, "Own it."

Beautiful.