Heartbroken Heartbreaker

Well, the stress isn’t necessarily over and school is still taking over my life.  I finally got a day when I just sat at home, relaxed, and did nothing.  Seriously, I needed one of those days.

Anyways, so my friends have always called me “Jared the Heartbreaker.”  I guess it suits me… and yes, it is bad.  I’ve always pictured my dream girl, the “one” so to speak, and if I find someone who I don’t see as the “one,” then I won’t see myself with them.  No I’m not trying to be conceited or anything like that at all, just trying to display a point that I’ve found that I’ve broken a lot of hearts.  All these girls who crush on me, who find me attractive, who actually like me for who I am, I end up breaking their hearts because I can’t see the “one” in them.  Is that so bad of me?  Is it really bad for me to wish for the “one”?  I don’t intend to break their hearts, I wish we could just be friends, I wish that we could be like family, I wish that you never crushed on me so that I could never hurt you.  No this isn’t aimed for anybody in particular, just the sweet ones whom I’ve hurt.  There are a number of you and I am sorry.  Truly very sorry.  And I will know just how you feel, when I find the “one” who will reject me; I’ll be a heartbroken heartbreaker.

But I have to look at this through both points.  A lot of you may be asking, “Well, what is wrong with me?  Are you so stuck up that I don’t reach your standards?”  Well, no, there is nothing wrong with you based on your standards and there is nothing wrong with you based on anybody’s standards.  Please understand there is nothing wrong with you; what I mean to say is that everybody has a preference.  I have a preference and you’re probably just not my type of girl.  “Well, I’m willing to change for you…”  DON’T!  Please don’t change, find another guy who would like you for who you are.  If you’re not happy with the way you are then go ahead and make a change, but that won’t make you a better person; that will only make you more satisfied with yourself.  If you’re happy with yourself, then find someone who will be happy for yourself as well.  Reality wise, there is no better person; religiously wise, a better person is one who is closer to God.  The more closer you are to God, the closer you are to Heaven.  But we have to look at this realistically, so please realize that nobody is better than anybody else.  A whore may see her pimp as the greatest person in the world as he provided her with warmth, love, care, and shelter; however, others may see him as dirty for his business.  There is nothing wrong with you, just not my type of girl, not my type of preference, but one who I may get along with.  Sorry once again.

Question:  Would you rather have you’re dream girl?  Or your soul mate?  Basically, would you rather have a girl who is everything you’ve every wanted?  Or the one who can relate to every possible experience you’ve had with theirs?

On Replay:  Comfortable//John Mayer