Stronger Than

So I heard this really cool song by Gabe Bondoc. Its called Stronger Than. I cant seem to stop listening to it. To me this is what it means:

Basically, youll never know when it hits you; at least when you find her. Or maybe you already know her, you just keep denying your feelings. Youre what ifs and what nots are not going to impress her. Dont deny how you feel and just accept it. If you like a person then face the truth, you like that person whether you are already seeing somebody or that person is already seeing somebody. You cant deny it. If that person you like is not feeling the exact way you feel if not better than you do for her than she does for him, then she deserves better. She deservers better; she deserves you. Switch it around now. If you are already seeing somebody, if you dont have the same feelings if not better feelings than the way you feel for her than you feel for the one youre seeing, then you deserve better, you deserve her. Unfortunately, in situations like these, you have a decision to make. Somebodys heart is going to have to be broken; yours, hers, or his. This is how I feel to an extent. The words of the chorus keep ringing through my mind:

I swear Im stronger than these emotions, but theyre taking over me

Just remember what you deserve, if not what you deserve, remember what she deserves. If you honestly believe she deserves better or if you honestly believe that you deserve better, then she deserves you and you deserve her.

Picking Up Where I Left Off

Forms of expression. Ive been really emotional on the inside lately. Nobody knows as usual. This very small form of depression is taking its toll on me. Im getting chubby. Thats just one of the few things... but not anymore. Forms of expression have come to me. Pick up from where you left off. Its one thing to bottle up feelings, emotions, and love; but its another story when you deny it. Forms of expression. Im getting back to my expressions. Still, people wont know of my issues, but Im letting things out personally. Let my anger flow within my workouts, turn that fat into muscle! Most of all, I wrote a few things a while back, and they were so sad... so it made me feel worse on the inside. But I have a new idea for a song. Its a bit more uplifting and resolving. And it makes me feel good on the inside because it is in fact how I feel about many things. Its called Even If. Basically, its a story for all the nice guys that would do anything for somebody they love even if they don't love them back. Sad? No. Hes okay with it and hes saying even if you dont love me, Ill walk with you by and by... Like all my deep inner thoughts, youll probably never hear of it. Maybe Ill post the lyrics later... Forms of expression; let it out.

Oh God, thanks for helping me out once again, I could only wish that I could help you the same way, but nothing I could do could ever repay the amount of love and sacrifice you have given me... and I still go against your word regretful and sorrowful every time. When will I learn? When will I learn...

Recap

You know, it doesnt matter if the day was bad or if the day was good, as long as the day was spent.  Washington DC was alright, I mean it was a good use of my time.  The weather was horrible and even though we all felt horrible throughout the whole day, it felt great to spend some time with the family.  I just have to say that spending time with family is one of the many things that I dont get to do as often as I want to do anymore.  Makes you wish you could have done more in the past.

Apparently my Lolo had financial problems and had to sell their house that I was staying in.  Ill have to commute to Cal Poly everyday which is going to be very hard.  Im sure Ill be able to handle all the driving to a certain extent.  Theres going to be a point when Im going to crack!  Im looking for an apartment to stay at; more preferably at a friends place.  Im not sure what Im going to do, all I know is that hopefully things will turn out good in the end.  Ill keep praying!

I really miss my friends.  I havent been able to hang around them as much as I want to because Im stuck doing a lot of work.  Summer school is over and my summer has officially started yet I dont have a lot of time to celebrate with my friends.  I need to find time, I need to make time.  A reunion is desperately needed right now because its literally been months since the last time I hung out with some of them.  I just want to be with the inner circle, nobody else.

God, take these feelings away, they never were meant to be.  Or were they?  Just take it away please, every time I look; it breaks me.  One day, Ill have my own... one day.

Invisible

... Jared, youre here, but youre not here...
... Jared, youre hardly around anymore...
... Jared, we dont see you that much nowadays...
... Jared, its about time we got to hang out...

Too many people have been saying the same thing to me.  Time is a very important thing that everybody needs.  God knows I need time.  Along with time are your priorities, set your priorities straight.  Every once in awhile, time and your priorities get mixed up and there is not enough time to get to all your priorities and you CANT make time.  From personal experience, Ive already cut about two hours of sleep a night out so I have more time to do work on things.  I miss my friends because I havent been able to hang out with them as much.  Barkada E-Board has taken up every Saturday that I have had free for awhile.  Friends always come first and before Barkada; however, Ive been concentrating more on Barkada because my friends will ALWAYS be there and they dont mind if I cant make it to an event.  On the other hand, Barkada is much more demanding and strict.  In any case, friends are still higher on the priorities list.

My main point is that you need to keep your priorities straight as well as keeping your time ready.  I have no time, I am a very busy person now.  There are some friends that I really miss and if I could hang out with them at 1:30 in the morning right now, Id definitely be willing to sacrifice my sleep.

... I miss the parties, I miss the hang outs, and I miss all that fun... but most of all, I miss that warm feeling of home and my own bed to sleep in...

Optimism

Sheer optimism.  Just look on the bright side of things.  There is always an upside to everything.  Just be glad.  But dont be too optimistic.  I am sure that a good number of you dont agree with all the ideals that I have, and even some of the things that I say contradict each other.  Im still learning.  Im sure many of you are still learning as well.  So Ill try to leave optimistically even though there are many negatives.  Everythings cool, next time!  Hopefully there will be a next time.  Lets things optimistically.  Id really like that.  Make the best of what things are right now, dont make the worst of things.  Cause that would be POINTLESS.  Unless there are some exceptions....

Lets think optimistically *wink wink*

Demolished

Youre a good friend Jared... BUT, I want you to be happy...

But am I?  I constantly ask the same question over and over again... I say Im happy, and I think I am, but Im not sure.  I always have second thoughts about the things I do.  Nobody wants people to step all over me.  I do have my standards that prevent people from stepping all over me, but usually I let people have it their way.  WHY?  I do it because I am afraid of disappointment, dissatisfaction, anything negative on the other side.  I rather take all the crap and put it on my side for them.  So, I really arent always happy with the decisions that I make.  EVEN though its the right thing to do, Im not always happy with it.  Or is it the right thing to do?  There are so many arguments and sides to whether it is right or not.  Theres a reason for everything.  And shouldnt I be happy for doing the right thing?  Unless Im doing the wrong thing.  These are just the few things of many things that Im lost with.  Why do it for humility?  Why always put your so called happiness on the side?  Humility is a virtue, simply stated.  Thats what Ive believed for a long time, and will most likely will continue to do so.  Even for future reference Im probably going to do the same thing over and over again.  Things that kill me:  Disappointment and guilt..

I never want people to feel disappointed in me and I hate having the feeling of guilt for doing something do others...

Burn it

Feeling burnt out? I know I am... lets start this lesson...

Just keep things on track. Theres always time for rest but try to keep it at a minimum. I only allow myself eight hours a night even if I was late the night before. Eight hours is more than enough sleep to get you through the day. Keep working on school and make sure that you dont procrastinate even though everybody does. Keep priorities straight, as long as you continue to do that, things will remain in shape. If you havent noticed, it is only when your priorities arent on par is when things go all wrong. My priorities are not in shape right now, Im putting too many things in front of school, more on the lines of free time. Keep your priorities straight, school may not be number one or even close to your priorities, but whatever they are, keep them on top and keep working at it! Otherwise, youll end up like me stressing the night before a HUGE project is due. Im kind of sad thought right now, I have no love interest at the moment. When I made the straw cover into the knot, I had no idea of what girl to think about... cause I had none, its been awhile since I had no interest in any girl, maybe the new freshman? But thats not important, remember, its things like that that make your priorities all crooked.

... if you fill up the jar with too much sand, there wont be enough room for the golf balls...

Never Stand Still

If youve noticed, my blogs have taken a turn to lessons rather than personal experiences.  I like the confidentiality of it this way while still providing lessons that I want people to learn =)

Get back in shape and stop sitting around!  Its summer, have a blast!  Seriously, theres no need to sit down and be sad and theres no reason to do nothing.  Get back into shape.  Go out and run!  Go out and swim!  Go to the beach and have a good time.  Try not to worry too much with all the drama.  The drama is there granted, but dont waste your summer thinking about it.  Sit back and relax, enjoy what time you have.  Im not worrying about girls right now and Im not worrying about drama, technically Im worrying about school.  Which leads to several important points.  Remember to keep your priorities straight.  Put things in the front before you worry about something.  That being said, get back in shape and stop laying around doing nothing.  Your getting fat.  Im getting fat.  Which is why Im getting back into shape.  Enjoy your summer, it is very short.  Especially you seniors.  My last summer as a senior was definitely memorable and Im making every summer memorable for now on.  Try your best to make every moment memorable.  Make videos, pictures, albums, etc.  whatever it takes to keep the memories.  I love making videos (Im in the process of creating a summer video).  Find a hobby and do it.  Whether its something musical (like what I enjoy doing on my free time) or simple.  Just keep going and doing something productive.  Always be productive.

That being said, go out and have fun!  Happy 4th of July.

DMX

So I read this really cool quote that got me thinking the other day, it went as follows:  If you love something, let it go, if it comes back to you, its yours.  If it doesnt, it never was.  A quote by DMX.  Shall I explain my two cents upon this topic?

There are many things that you may find to like or maybe even love in this world.  But as DMX said, try and let it go.  IF that thing that you love truly has the same feelings back to you, then that thing will come back.  Now I know that many of you may be thinking that this one thing is a girl or a significant other, but dont always think that way.  This thing could be anything.  But just for the sake of confusion, lets pretend that this one thing is in fact a significant other.  The hardest thing is letting go, and its true.  If you have a hard time letting go of that one special someone you may like because of so many coincidences in personality or happenings, then its of no surprise.  As I said in a speech a few days ago, just let it go.  Can you do it?  If it comes back, then its YOURS.  Sure, youll be sad if she doesnt come back but be happy that she is going after something that she loves and unfortunately it wont be you.  Its the hardest thing, ACCEPTANCE. Accept defeat and accept your losses.  Theres not much to evaluate on this quote, its pretty much self explanatory.  I just found it very interesting and useful with the many mishaps Ive had in life... it answered me so to speak...

Ive let go of many things in life that I didnt want to, and unfortunately none of them came back.  Hopefully in the future I will find something that will...

Stay Strong

Spend each day as if its your last.  Cause it just might be.  Really though.  Go out as much as you can, spend each minute you can with someone, become really intimate with the close friends that you have.  Life is short, sometimes shorter than expected.  Lifes unfair, but fairness is absolutely boring.  BE UNFAIR.  Give more than you take until you have nothing.  Once youve given it all just let it go.  Forget the bad times and regret every minute.  Live a life of no regrets?  I live a life full of regret.  I regret not learning this, I regret not saying that, I regret not doing this so now Im going to go do it!  DO IT.  Always regret cause if you dont you are finished.  I dont regret doing [x] cause I never would have been able to do [y] if I did [x].  Well couldnt you have done more for [y]?  DO MORE.  Youve never done ENOUGH.  Never be content.  Always be excited!  Be anxious.  Make fun.  Never stand still.  Be afraid.  Be brave.  Lose with effort and win without pride but acknowledge your mistakes.  Live life to the fullest, live life with regrets, live life under pressure, and live life under limits and standards.  Keep your moral fiber strong and never let it break.  Go now and live life like theres not tomorrow full of regret, full of standards, and full of moral fiber.  Stay strong my friends...

... be humiliated and truly sorry for everything you have and havnt done...

Soak up the sun

Wow.  Today was our first E-Board meeting.  Good stuff.  Im really excited for this years board.  We are going to have a great year!  Hopefully we will be able to meet the expectations of last year and possibly exceed them.  I know we can do it.  Ive got my work cut out for me along with the rest of the board.  My summer is pretty much complete taken up.  I mean, theres definitely going to be a lot of fun with Barkada, but I dont want to be completely left out of my old buddies you know?  I really want to spend time with my Incredibles and Inner Circle.  I guess whatever time I can find Im going to use it spending time with them.  Ive got summer school and that doesnt take up too much time, I just have to make sure that I dont procrastinate on my work.  The work at VVC is really easy though.  Its a huge relief compared to Cal Poly.  This summer is going to be really exciting!  Everything seems to be going by so fast.  A lot of my summer has been spent doing so many things, no time to relax always busy doing something.  Then again, thats just how I like it.  My cousin Nicolle graduated!  Wooo congratulations!  We have several grad parties to go to this summer too =).  I love summer and the beach!

Late Night Convos

Jared, its a little unfair.  I really think you should reconsider your own feelings before putting others in front of you... for as long as Ive known you, youve been doing this and I dunno... sometimes I cant believe and I dont understand why you do the things you do for them.  You give up your own hopes to bring light to others... why?  If it makes you feel this way... why?

It was a conversation something like that.  Maybe not word for word, but it was something like that.  Truth is, I dont know why I do that.  I cant seem to be able to do something that I want to do if it causes harm to somebody else regardless of my feelings.  Its not peer pressure because I have a strong resistance to some things.  But I try, I really do, I go after my own passions but if I see that it hurts somebody else Ill give up cause it just doesnt feel right.  I want to be able to be a [        ], I want to be able to [       ], I want [       ], but I refuse to allow myself to even if I can get what I want... why?  (Ive left those blank because I dont know what to place in there except in some cases I do know but shall remain in secret...)  Cause in almost every case, it bothers somebody else, and I CANT STAND that.  Guilt hurts me just as much as disappointment whether its from my family, my friends, or even my so called enemies.

Its all about YOU Jared, its all ABOUT YOU and nobody else...

Yet another conversation with another friend.  I thought that I could grasp that concept.  He asked me what is the one thing that you want? It took me a long time to answer... and I gave whatever came up at the top of my mind, I said that I wanted to go to Heaven when my life is over... I want my golden ticket.  Thats what I want in the end... but I didnt know what I wanted right now... and to tell you the truth, I still dont.  And theres just no way it could be all about me... cause how could I expect to leave an impression on everybody if its all about me?  If its all about me, where does everybody else fit in?  I dunno... I want to go after my own dreams, but sometimes I just have to give it all up... cause I will always believe that its all about you and NEVER about me...  Im too selfish.  Im sorry bro, I dont think that I can ever truly grasp that concept of yours...

Banquet

The beach was great.  I was so excited to go since its been a long time since I went to the beach.  I think it was the first time this year I went to the beach!  Crazy!  I missed it a lot though.  I missed all the BBQs, the bonfires, the smores, the ocean in general, the talks, etc etc.  Im going again on Monday with The Incredibles so its going to be a blast since we always make the best of it.

So I start summer school on June 19.  I was only able to get two classes though because the transfer credits arent that good with VVC to Cal Poly.  Its alright though... Im just going to have to make it up sometime in my years of college.  Summers going to be fun!  I can feel it.  Ive got a good number of plans for summer already with friends, family, and Barkada.  And speaking of Barkada...

... banquet was fun!  I really had a good time.  I wasnt going crazy though, I was acting real chill.  My date was cool, and I won some really cool votes!  The food was alright... it was like one of those fancy restaurant servings where they give you like a quarter of what you really want for four times the price that its really worth(dont worry though, the food at banquet was free!).  I won best dressed for boys, Im not too sure how that happened when I just go to school with a shirt and pants... or do I?  =P.  Jowee won for girls.  I also won freshman of the year.  Wow!  Along with Lyssa.  Aww, Im not going to see her for the rest of summer maybe.  So, then we had E-board positions announced.  I won for external rep.  NICE!  So, thirteen positions are as follows:

1. Historian: Vince


2. External: Me


3. MCC: Pat


4. BEC: Dom


5. Treas: Rhea


6. PR: Anne


7. Academics: Erin


8. Cultrual: Leo


9. Social: Jowee


10. Sports: Perry


11. Sec: Joy


12. Vice: Ana


13. Pres: Mike

Sex-E-Board gave birth to BABE-E-BOARD!!  I took Christal home cause I didnt want her to go to the after party.  I went there for half an hour and took my water shot cause I had to drive home... not that I do drink.  Never been drunk so its cool!  Im not ready to be... I left at 2:00 and got home around 3:00.  Weve got some planning to do E-board.  But its going to be a great year... I feel it.

Chad gave me his word.  Haha.  Well, to a well year!  It was fun.  Im the youngest E-board member... but dont count me out!  Im going to bring some great things to this family.

Blue Book

Argument for the blue book:

Well, there seems to be a bit of controversy about this so called mistake. So I will explain to you why I am CORRECT in claiming that this image is in fact a BLUE BOOK.

The argument is based on the following premises:

1) Its not blue
2) Its not a book

Now here is my claim for believing that it is in fact a blue book.

The first premise is that:

1) It's not blue

Well, there is some blue in it, it may not be completely blue, but I would agree that there is some blue. As it does take the two primary colors to make that color, blue being one of them and yellow being the other. But seeing that it could be arguable, I could let that slide with me being 50% accurate...

The second premise is that:

2) It's not a book

WELL, I think I win this one 100%. If you look at the picture, you don't even have to look at it closely, it says in big bold letters [Mini Essay BOOK.] Now I may be wrong, but I think that that evidence is a very reliable reason to believe that it is in fact a book.

So in conclusion, if we add both of these percentages together, I was 75% accurate, since both of these premises make up half of the overall accuracy and I was 50% accurate on the first premise and 100% correct on the second, averaging them out makes me 75% accurate. Now I may be wrong again, but I won the higher half of being correct than incorrect and because you can only be correct or incorrect, I was CORRECT in saying that that is in fact a blue book. If you have any questions feel free to call 1-760(yes Victorville)-IAM-RIGHT =). Good day.

PEACE & Love

Whisper

I cant do it. I cant take [it] away from [him]. [He] adores [it], and I would be the worst person in the world to steal [it] away... even though I want [it] too, but Im undeserving. I better just let [it] go...

[For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.] I guess that goes with [it] as well. To gain [it], one must lose [it]...

God, please provide me with the graces to let go, even though I dont want to... please, I cant do it... please, break my heart... for them... because Ive made a mistake not knowing the whole situation... but at least whisper for me if you can...

Replay: Whisper Ernie Halter

-Tell me, what kind of man, lets love slip away and leave such a good thing behind?

[hint] think high school...

Switch it on off

I find it depressing.  One week it’s as if we like each other unable to let go; while the next it’s just like “whatever.”  I keep telling myself, “maybe if I keep waiting, the chance will happen,” even though they all tell me, “sorry Jared, as of now you don’t have a chance…” All the while I’m waiting, I’ve passed up chances; but I’m so typical, so stubborn, and so shallow… too many opportunities arise that I pass.  And now, I took a chance even though I’m waiting.  A while back a friend made a prediction of my future of how I would meet my “dream,” and strange as it was I’m in a situation like that now.  I took a chance, a crazy one.  I’m tired of waiting, I’m falling asleep as I grasp the light switch.  Should I put my hopes in dreams and awake to new ones or continue waiting until the door opens?  I think it’s best that I turn out the lights; but I still hesitate to switch it on off…

On a side note: prom was fun.

PACiN'

PACN was quite the experience.  Built better bonds, worked under stress, and provided a voice to the community.  It felt great to go out there and do it!  The feeling was like a long adrenaline rush the whole time!  My heart was pumping the whole time, that’s even how I woke up!  I’ll never forget all the practices we did and all the hard work that we all had to do to achieve this PACN.  To me, this was the most heartfelt and strong PACN regardless of other people’s thoughts because to me, it made my family, friends, and my loved ones proud of all the work we all went through.  We all worked as a family to do this, and that is exactly what we are; ohana.  And as one of my truly inspiring friends said who actually provided me with counsel: “The hardest things in life get the greatest rewards” and we all worked hard for this and the reward was absolutely amazing.  Thanks for the talk; I hardly do those kind of things.  May God’s graces go within this new family.

Repetition

My days have been so repetitious lately.  School, practice or BNP, workout, and sleep.  Everything begins all over the next day.  God is keeping me busy for the next several weeks though.  It’s alright though; there have been some really cool events that I’ve done these past weeks.

First there was Facades.  I did a piece titled “Products of Society.”  Basically it was a monologue/spoken word and through it I spoke my experiences and my goals with the will of God.  I was hoping to inspire some people; Marco spoke to me after the event and on the next day telling me that, “I felt it.”  It really made me feel good inside.  I am being His instrument to spread His teachings.

PACN is coming up on May 21rst.  I’m trying to sell tickets to everybody I know.  I was originally a doctor, but now I’m a dude who’s “In the closet” or maybe just unsure of his sexuality.  Oh man it’s hilarious!  I’m a little skeptical about it, but I get a girlfriend in the end, so no need to worry.  Besides, it doesn’t matter what other people think in this world so as long as I have my real friends who really know me and of course God leading my life.  I want to run for E-Board next year as Marco’s current position: External Representative.  We’ll see how that goes.  PACN practices are hard and all day…

I missed this event called Joke Night at Stephanie’s church.  I really wanted to go but it was my brother’s birthday so I had to go home and spend time with the family, which is totally fine.  But I really wanted to hang out…

JoJo’s dance event called Ultimate Brawl is coming up; everybody is going so I’m going to go too.  I’m sure it’s going to be fun.  I haven’t hung out with all those kids in awhile so I kind of miss them.  I really miss my inner circle as usual though.  We need a reunion; the last time was when we went searching for cheesecake…

The BNP has been my time of peace in the week.  Tuesdays I go to Ultrea to hear the sharings and basically learn of everybody’s experiences.  Apparently I might be going with a girl there to Prom.  I’m sure it’s going to be fun; I remember my prom nights.  I’ll show her a good time.  I go there whenever there is an event just to be refreshed.  I wish that I could go there more often though…

By the way, yes, there is a girl I like right now.  I always highlight her name in my phonebook but I can’t seem to press the dial button.  I can’t help but hesitate to call because I don’t want to say the wrong things or bother her you know? She inspires me to play the piano whenever I have free time.  The worst part is that I don’t even know her that well.  I wish I could just ask her to lunch or something so that she could get to know me and I could get to know her.  Rather than just hanging out during events… I’m hoping to ask her to Banquet even though I know she’s so busy…  I’m probably not in her thoughts right now so I doubt if she’s going to read all the way down this blog; I’m not that worried about writing this.  I better take a chance… I wonder if she’s busy right now… I’m going to text or call her right now, hopefully she’ll pick up =).

PEACE & Love

Holy Week

This has been the most spiritual enlightening week of my life…

… would you believe me if I told you I was touched by God? Both spiritually and physically? Yes physically... well, actions speak louder than words and hopefully you, all my friends, have been noticing the radical changes in my life…

… and I pray to you my brothers and sisters, that you may find the light to follow your heart to enlightenment; many of you don’t realize that time is running out… our Lord will come back again to cleanse this earth…

… yes I am talking about the end of the world….

… are you ready? I hope you are, but I should tell all of you, I’m praying for the safety of your souls. The only reason why there is sorrow on this Earth is because of sin, and the only reason why there is sin on this Earth is because of us…

… why are we sad? Are you happy WILLFULLY going against the will of God? Do you feel good abusing your body? Do you feel right avoiding blessings by not receiving the sacraments of communion and reconciliation? My friends let me tell you something…

… the devil is beautiful; yes, not ugly, but beautiful. He has taken our hearts and tricked us with temptation and “the easy” ways out of situations. Try your best to avoid and not fall under the trance of his beauty because IT IS SO STRONG, so mind grabbing, and so hurtful in the end…

… my brothers and sisters, are you ready to embrace God? When He asks you the question, “What have you done, in honor of me?” Do you know what you can say? I don’t know guys…

… I love you kids with all my heart. Sometimes, you would have no idea that I even have a relationship with Him. But I tell you, He guides me everyday and He is the reason why I go on. I pray for you; because I am worried…

… please understand, that I am very worried. I shouldn’t be, but sometimes when I sit in the corner doing homework and studying, I observe so many simple actions that go against his will; cursing, drinking excessively, smoking, disrespect…

… I tell you to stop. I always imagine another nail hammered into His son and that he goes through all that pain FOR US. It makes me cry, it makes me weep, it despairs me. This week was for Him and I hope that He was in your mind even for a simple minute for you to do something of His will…

Peace & Love to you, all my brothers and sisters…

Banal Na Pag-Aaral Retreat

So where did I go during this three day weekend? I went on a Church retreat… first off, let me introduce myself the BNP way:

I am your brother in Christ, Brother Jared Falcis. VERY fortunate to have graduated from the Banal Na Pag-Aaral Panawagan Class number 59 held on March 31 to April 2 2006 at the BNP House Of Prayer In Ontario, CA UNDER THE GRACE OF GOD!!

So I thought that this was just going to be another “Confirmation 3 Retreat.” And of course I was wrong. I loved my confirmation 3 retreat, and I definitely loved this retreat. I experienced similar feelings from both but I felt that my overall feeling and strength for God was much more intimate and stronger in this retreat. This was an all boys retreat so there could be no distractions from the main purpose of this retreat; to get to know the BNP and to become closer to God.

Let me tell you. I know some of you are all like, “Oh all boys… how boring.” Well you lost the point of the retreat then. The things that happened at this retreat were LIFE CHANGING! I have NEVER… I’ll repeat NEVER had feelings after a retreat as strong as I do now; not even after the confirmation 3 retreat (though that was a blast!). Oh my God… I just received so many new Brothers in Christ. There ARE people just like me with the same problems and we all shared our experiences. We had MANY rollios, talks, and discussions along with activities. The food was bomb(or so I heard since I gave up meat for lent). But I can’t possibly tell you everything I felt and everything I did this retreat because there just is no way to explain it. REALLY. You have to learn it for yourself. And I want to share these feelings with you and all my friends, so I AM NOT afraid to tell the world about how I felt at this retreat.

The purpose of life is to know, love, and serve God. I know God, I love God, and I am most definitely ready to serve God.

Many thanks go out to my brothers… my new brothers in Christ. We were all ballin’; no need to be ashamed of it. More than once too. During the Calvary and while we spoke to Mahal Na Ingkong. Let’s continue our faith and I hope to see you again soon… Thanks definitely go out to the servers. I met some of my old family members and some new friends. You guys really gave your hearts. Without you guys, this retreat would not have been possible. You’ve inspired me to become a server as well… The Rectors… oh my God you guys are great. Thank you Brother Ace, thank you Brother Nino, thank you Brother Ashley. You’ll never know how much you’ve changed my life. Thanks for everything. I only had a glimpse of what you all had to go through to help me and my brothers. And you know WE LOVE YOU TOO. And we’ll always miss you. I already do! It’s weird!! But cool. You’re my inspirations. Brother Ace man, I’m still waiting for a pick up line battle! Haha. But most of all, I cannot forget to thank Ate Salve. I have never met her personally, but I definitely want to someday. That day will be soon hopefully. Without Ate Salve, none of this would have been possible along with the fact that there would not even be a BNP. So I must thank her for everything. Thank you Ate Salve and may God Bless you even more than he already has! Anyways, I have so much more to say but I have school tomorrow at eight in the morning. Love you guys, you all can always count on me if you ever need help. Just let me know. Peace Out. Don’t forget to say your prayers and give your graces… “Can’t Stop… Won’t stop...”