Switch it on off

Sunday, May 28, 2006

I find it depressing.  One week it’s as if we like each other unable to let go; while the next it’s just like “whatever.”  I keep telling myself, “maybe if I keep waiting, the chance will happen,” even though they all tell me, “sorry Jared, as of now you don’t have a chance…” All the while I’m waiting, I’ve passed up chances; but I’m so typical, so stubborn, and so shallow… too many opportunities arise that I pass.  And now, I took a chance even though I’m waiting.  A while back a friend made a prediction of my future of how I would meet my “dream,” and strange as it was I’m in a situation like that now.  I took a chance, a crazy one.  I’m tired of waiting, I’m falling asleep as I grasp the light switch.  Should I put my hopes in dreams and awake to new ones or continue waiting until the door opens?  I think it’s best that I turn out the lights; but I still hesitate to switch it on off…

On a side note: prom was fun.

PACiN'

Monday, May 22, 2006

PACN was quite the experience.  Built better bonds, worked under stress, and provided a voice to the community.  It felt great to go out there and do it!  The feeling was like a long adrenaline rush the whole time!  My heart was pumping the whole time, that’s even how I woke up!  I’ll never forget all the practices we did and all the hard work that we all had to do to achieve this PACN.  To me, this was the most heartfelt and strong PACN regardless of other people’s thoughts because to me, it made my family, friends, and my loved ones proud of all the work we all went through.  We all worked as a family to do this, and that is exactly what we are; ohana.  And as one of my truly inspiring friends said who actually provided me with counsel: “The hardest things in life get the greatest rewards” and we all worked hard for this and the reward was absolutely amazing.  Thanks for the talk; I hardly do those kind of things.  May God’s graces go within this new family.