It’s the end of the year!
Who would have thought? As I sit in my room at about midnight… there are so many things on the top of my mind. This year was amazing… how could I ever forgot the year 2005. I’m just sitting here reminiscing about all the events and kickbacks that I had this year. I remember Winter Formal, I remember birthday parties such as Linette’s, I remember homecoming, I remember The Asian Pacific Islander Club, I remember prom, I remember HIGH SCHOOL. I remember grad night and graduation… I remember the surprise parties for my birthday and all my friends. I remember Thanksgiving, Easter, Halloween, and the road trip half away across America with my family. Oh my goodness im a brown belt!! All Vegas trips just for prime rib even though I don’t eat it. My Incredibles, my Inner Circle… I remember my college applications, my AP tests and SAT’s. I remember choosing the college I wanted to go to… my first time meeting Barkada at the beach… ALL THOSE BEACH TRIPS GUYS!! I’ll never forget that BBQ chicken that Sammy makes. Some of us left… the day I moved out… my first day of college… God, so much. It’s amazing how much you can fit into a year. My senior year… I’ll never forget all those things… It’s funny how I’m reminiscing now. Probably because I just finished watching Sky High with the family and they were having like Homecoming and stuff. But still… perspective.
Everybody has a perspective of life. Some believe that they should live life to the fullest by partying and going crazy all over the place. Some prefer to stay home and play video games, watch TV, or what not. Some rather just chill, sit-back relax with a cold drink. Some rather just sit at home reading a book by a fire place. Some stay with friends, some stay with family, many with both! My perspective of life is simple, “live life to the fullest… just as long as you’re living it with God.” And with that, you can enjoy all the pleasures of a blessed life with the Lord by your side walking with you every step of the way. I loved this year. I got confirmed this year! In fact, I’m happy that I started writing blogs so that now I can record my memories making it easier for me to remember. As this year ends… get rid of all those regrets, secrets, grudges… just leave it all behind. My family always tells me to start the New Year clean. Take a shower 10 minutes before the year starts so that you’re clean for the rest of the year. Hahaha.
So now I’m doing monster clean up right now. AND… as for new year’s it’s simple I want fall in love. ^_^. Yuup… as simple as it may seem, as stupid as it may sound, I want to experience it. Something I’ve longed for a long time… something I’ve waited for a long time. I want to get married by 23 after all hahaha. Seriously. Anyways, I just wanted to go over this year… I have the choice right now. I can stay at home with friends and watch them drink through New Years or go the Vegas with the family and be the only boy… hahaha. I’m going to Vegas. Sorry… it’s beautiful over there…
“2005! WHAT?! 2005! WHAT?! 2005! WHAT?!...”
“Is this the end? No, just the beginning of a brand new fun filled day as we run through the sprinklers…”
As we stare at the stars…
“You know, every time we see a shooting star… it means a star is dying… and that means an angel loses its wings…”
“Yeah… and it’s beautiful”
“This our secret spot for our inner circle… every time you come to Irvine, you have to visit this spot…”
“As secretary of the API club, I would like to present our president this plaque…”
“Congratulations class of 2005 we graduated!!”
Music in the background… “Here in this diary, I write you visions of my summer. It was the BEST I’ve ever had…”
“I’m sorry, this party is too large… is it alright if we take this picture outside?”
“Congratulations Mr. Falcis, you have passed your confirmation exam…”
“And the princes of winter formal court are: Jared Falcis…”
“Let’s take pictures at Scandia!”
“Oppa on three 1…2…3… Oppa!!:
“We are B-AR…K-A-DA…”
“Our mind and bodies may be someplace else, but our hearts will always remain in Victorville. I love you guys…”
So many more quotes… yet, I will never forget… 2005.
I just returned from Vegas today with Sammy, DeeJ, and Ryan for Sammy’s 21rst birthday. I just have to say that it was a lot of fun; definitely more fun than anticipated… and I anticipated a lot of fun. We write blogs mainly to serve as a journal to record our inner most thoughts and feelings; however, at the same time, we hope others will read it… with that mentality in mind, It’s difficult for me to write all that I wish to say. In the course of this trip, three of the highlights I experienced would be God (what?? In Vegas??), self realization, and counsel… along with immeasurable amounts of fun!
God saved my life this weekend, or at least prevented me from getting a serious injury. We were chilling at a red, left turn stop light. It had just turned green but Sammy was preoccupied getting a CD I think. So I said, “Sammy green, Sammy green, Sammy green!!” several times. It took us a couple of seconds stopped at the green light before we began to move forward. Right before we were about to go, a car zooms quickly and closely past us (from the right side of the intersection, he was making a left and tried to catch the yellow). If not for Sammy being preoccupied, we probably would have been T-boned on my side (Aray ko!). I think this was God telling Sammy not to go yet… saving me… I was tripping out unnoticeably this entire weekend thanking God I was alive. I’m so thankful now for everything he has given me…
I also realized several things this weekend, one being my place in society. I felt that I brought down the mood of the trip because I gave some attitude refusing to drink some alcohol. I didn’t mean too… but they understood. Still had a great time bowling though! I don’t really have anybody who I can “connect” with. I mean, I saw connections being made from Ryan and DeeJ because of similar interests and characteristics with other people… I have found NOBODY who could probably see where I’m coming from… it would be awesome to look into the eyes of a girl who is similar to me in countless ways. I know there are a couple of girls who are similar to me; I just haven’t met them yet. I got some counsel about “yin and yang” from my buddies, but I couldn’t provide feedback… not to say I didn’t understand, but that they really don’t seem where I’m coming from and I know I can’t explain where I’m coming from… I really do appreciate them trying to help out thought. I’m not saying that their opinions aren’t helping me because they really are. I know it sounds like my weekend was no good, but you have no idea how much of a great time we had! I love these guys… too bad some of us were missing though.
Overall… a great weekend; in fact, we’re already planning another one! I just finished Myspacing and I discovered many things. Some things made me happy, some made me sad, but I still hope for the best… right, just hope for the best…
Current Mood//EXTREMELY HAPPY!! but now oddly broken
On Repeat//I thought she knew Nsync
My Schedule:
CHM 121 Sec. 02
Instructor: Opotowsky
9:00AM-9:50AM
Mon-Wed-Fri
PHL 201 Sec. 03
Instructor: Reardan
10:30AM-11:35AM
Mon-Wed-Fri
BIO 122L Sec. 02
Instructor: TBA
12:00PM-2:50PM
Mon-Wed
ENG 104 Sec. 08
Instructor: Appleford
4:00PM-5:50PM
Mon-Wed
BIO 122 Sec. 01
Instructors: Bozak, George, LaMunyon
9:15AM-10:30AM
Tue-Thu
CHM 121L Sec.24
Instructor: Greet
4:00PM-6:50PM
Thu
What I have To Say:
Dude, this is going to be a crazy quarter... 6 classes, only 17 units. That's MADNESS!! I'll be praying like everyday to do well in my classes. Anyways, If anyone has had any of these instructors, feedback would be greatly appreciated, though I did go to gradecalpoly.com to make sure that I got good instructors. Mon and Wed are going to kill me... and that Chemistry Lab is just out there... Hope your guys schedules turned out nicely. Vacation just started and I'm already worried about school =P... Well, glad I stayed up late to fix my schedule.
So I NEVER really got into writing blogs and all… but I figure this a good way for people to see where I’m coming from. I’m sure that this will also be a great method to aid my writing skills in English. Note that these previous blogs were moved from myspace to here… anyways, here’s my life as of now…
FRIENDS. I have my inner circle, my Barkada family, my Incredibles, and my Victorville friends. Lately, I’ve definitely been missing my inner circle. We NEED a reunion with all of us there… there always seems to be one of us missing. I’m missing all of those parking lot days in high school and all those funny things that we find funny but other people don’t… it’s all good though, because we’ll all be back for the holidays, Thank God. Let’s go to Scandia and take pictures. Let’s try to fit seven or more of us in there! My Barkada family… they’re new in my life… don’t get me wrong though, they’re really cool! I have this Kuya from the Ate/Kuya program, he’s really funny. Sometimes I worry for him though, I think that there’s more to him than what’s on the outside… how do I know? Well, I don’t drink, but sometimes when HE does… and he seems to always have something on his mind. I worry for him, but I guess he worries for me just as much after all he’s always checking up on me. Unfortunately, I still have that problem of opening up... I’m getting there though FO SHO!! =P. Barkada… my home away from home. My Incredibles… I’ve been initiated. It makes me happy knowing that they still want to chill with me even though I’ve moved to Ontario. More than words can say, they are definitely my Heroes… thanks. I’m happy we can still do the things we do now like Taco Tuesdays and gift exchanges. As for my Victoville friends, we seem to be drifting apart… but there’s always myspace, so hopefully we can stay in touch.
FAMILY. I’m home for the Holidays… I’ve been homesick. MAD homesick. The coolest thing about going home is that all illnesses seem to disperse. There’s no place like home.
GOD. I needed him critically these past few weeks… I think God went overtime answering my prayers. ESPECIALLY with school. Finals week, I swear I made a secret prayer before every final and I’m still praying for my grades… not only for my grades, but also for Verlee’s grades. I’m taking advantage of that “God loves me” rule... before my psych final, I said, “if God loves me, then I will do good on it…” and what do you know, I did well. I shouldn’t say that though, it was only for fun. I need to give something back now, after all Jesus’ birthday is coming up, I can’t wait!
LOVE. Hahaha… what to say about it? I liked this girl from Cal Poly for numerous reasons… unfortunately, I wasn’t getting the same vibe back. Or maybe I was just going too slow. Ah well, if it's the vibe, if its my speed, WHATEVER it is, the point is that there hasn't really been a spark yet, so I’m just happy that we can make each other laugh. For the most part though, I'm just chillen… who knows who God has planned for me, maybe he’s telling me not to get too close to this girl just yet, maybe he’s telling me to wait and he’ll reward me with the right girl. For now, I’m still looking...
mood//contemplative
on repeat//family business-Kanye West
**Actually made July 18,2005**
It’s ridiculous; it’s so ridiculous to see what people would do to gain attention and popularity. You clowns who stand as the center of attention, you cowards who ran away from the storm, you lights that cast everything in the shadows; this speech is not for you, though you should read it. This is not a lesson about “getting the right friends” or “learning to trust the ones close to you,” this is purely a tribute to my true friends.
True friends, this is for you. For all of you who provided comfort to those who were down, who strive to make dreams come true, who put your arms around someone and promised to go through the thick and thin with them, this is for you. For all of you who act as my Ate’s and Kuya’s providing me with any help I need, who gave me their trust and respect for my way of life, who always give me confidence when I have none, this is for you. For all of you who gave that clown a hand after being humiliated, for all of you who acted as a shield from the storm, for all of you who gave your light even to the darkest of shadows, this is for you.
It is a true gift from God that I have friends like you. God has brought me together with you all and has truly blessed me with your presence. I feel as if I can tell you guys anything without a problem knowing that you guys will help me in any way possible. As if you want to hear me out rather than feeling obligated to listen to me, as if you want to help me rather than feeling obligated to help me. A blessing, you guys are nothing less than a blessing from God given to me and I thank God so much for this gift. You all have no idea how much I love and appreciate all the things you guys do for me.
I can only hope that I have been such a friend to you all and that you guys are as comfortable around me as I am to you. I pray that the feelings and the love that I have for you all is the same as your feeling towards me. I can promise you guys that I will always be there for you all in whatever you guys do and that you all can count on me to be a true friend to you guys as you all have been to me. Don’t ever hesitate to call me up.
Whether it’s three blind mice opening up my eyes, a pirate giving me his treasure, or a hero who has saved my life in countless ways, I love and appreciate you all. You mean the world to me and more. I love you guys with all my heart and wish you all peace in the future! God Bless.
-(^_^)/ “Peace Be With You”
**Actually made April 10,2005**
There really is NO WAY I can describe how this retreat has effected me. Seriously, for once, I can say that I have gone through a "life-changing" experience. Never have I felt so "clean" as I am right now, not to say that I had a dirty soul before, but now I feel that the whole world has been lifted off my shoulders.
I'll just skip to the most critical part of the retreat, which was Saturday night. It was about 9:30 and we had just gotten finished performing skits of the seven gifts of the Holy Spirit, my group was fortitude and we did the BEST hahaha! But, as soon as we finished, the retreat team sat us down at our tables and brought in a box. Because my brother had the same retreat last year, I knew exactly what was in the box.
On my first year retreat, we wrote a letter to ourselves, from me to me. On our second year, we wrote a letter to Jesus. This year, we wrote another letter to Jesus. Anyways, in this box, there were envelopes filled with letters. I was one of the only few who knew secretly what was already in the box. The box was filled with letters from our loved ones, most of us it was our family. I opened the first letter, it was from my little cousin who is only about 6. And who would have thought that out of the flower that she drew me, a Bee would come out and sting me in the eye? Gosh, my tears were rolling down my face. All I had to read was, "To: JayJay From: Sammy(my baby cousin)." And that was it, I started balling. I had gotten letters from my cousins, from my Ninang(Godmother), one from each of my parents, and one from my brother and sister.
I CAN'T explain to you exactly how I felt while I was reading those letters. Before, I have cried because I was sad, I have cried because I was mad, but NEVER have I cried tears of joy. Yea sure, I have had a lot of happy moments in this life of mine, but it's not likely that you would see me cry in front of my friends just for hanging out all day...It's not easy holding in your tears in front of your class; but I couldn't keep it to myself. I have the letters still, but I'm afraid that If I open them, I'll just start crying again...Let's move on to the next activity we did that night.
Our next subject was about something called AW-GUH-PAY. That's how you pronounce it since I don't know how to spell it. Basically, lets just say that it's a different kind of love. To better explain it, the retreat team read us a story called, "I'll Love You Forever." I'm sure most of you guys have read this little nursery rhyme. If not, well, maybe you'll remember this little melody, "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be." Well, that's how they told us what awguhpay was. Soon after that, we were kneeling in front of the presence of Jesus just praying and listening to other people's prayers.
Maaaan, I can go on and on and on about this retreat because I'm not even close to done yet about what we had done! I'll just end this by saying that I feel like a brand new person, now I have already taken MOST of the hate out of me. I want to make ammends with my enemies if I have any, and to reconstruct better bonds with friends and family. I want to do so much more too, but for those who know what I'm talking about, I want to "PERSEVERE." And one more thing for those who know what I'm talking of, "Rise and shine, and give god your glory glory. Rise and shine, and give god your glory glory. Rise and shine, and give god your glory glory! Children of the lord!" hahaha...Let's go party yea?
-(^_^)/ "Peace Be With You"
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