Invisible

Friday, July 28, 2006

... Jared, youre here, but youre not here...
... Jared, youre hardly around anymore...
... Jared, we dont see you that much nowadays...
... Jared, its about time we got to hang out...

Too many people have been saying the same thing to me.  Time is a very important thing that everybody needs.  God knows I need time.  Along with time are your priorities, set your priorities straight.  Every once in awhile, time and your priorities get mixed up and there is not enough time to get to all your priorities and you CANT make time.  From personal experience, Ive already cut about two hours of sleep a night out so I have more time to do work on things.  I miss my friends because I havent been able to hang out with them as much.  Barkada E-Board has taken up every Saturday that I have had free for awhile.  Friends always come first and before Barkada; however, Ive been concentrating more on Barkada because my friends will ALWAYS be there and they dont mind if I cant make it to an event.  On the other hand, Barkada is much more demanding and strict.  In any case, friends are still higher on the priorities list.

My main point is that you need to keep your priorities straight as well as keeping your time ready.  I have no time, I am a very busy person now.  There are some friends that I really miss and if I could hang out with them at 1:30 in the morning right now, Id definitely be willing to sacrifice my sleep.

... I miss the parties, I miss the hang outs, and I miss all that fun... but most of all, I miss that warm feeling of home and my own bed to sleep in...

Optimism

Monday, July 10, 2006

Sheer optimism.  Just look on the bright side of things.  There is always an upside to everything.  Just be glad.  But dont be too optimistic.  I am sure that a good number of you dont agree with all the ideals that I have, and even some of the things that I say contradict each other.  Im still learning.  Im sure many of you are still learning as well.  So Ill try to leave optimistically even though there are many negatives.  Everythings cool, next time!  Hopefully there will be a next time.  Lets things optimistically.  Id really like that.  Make the best of what things are right now, dont make the worst of things.  Cause that would be POINTLESS.  Unless there are some exceptions....

Lets think optimistically *wink wink*

Demolished

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Youre a good friend Jared... BUT, I want you to be happy...

But am I?  I constantly ask the same question over and over again... I say Im happy, and I think I am, but Im not sure.  I always have second thoughts about the things I do.  Nobody wants people to step all over me.  I do have my standards that prevent people from stepping all over me, but usually I let people have it their way.  WHY?  I do it because I am afraid of disappointment, dissatisfaction, anything negative on the other side.  I rather take all the crap and put it on my side for them.  So, I really arent always happy with the decisions that I make.  EVEN though its the right thing to do, Im not always happy with it.  Or is it the right thing to do?  There are so many arguments and sides to whether it is right or not.  Theres a reason for everything.  And shouldnt I be happy for doing the right thing?  Unless Im doing the wrong thing.  These are just the few things of many things that Im lost with.  Why do it for humility?  Why always put your so called happiness on the side?  Humility is a virtue, simply stated.  Thats what Ive believed for a long time, and will most likely will continue to do so.  Even for future reference Im probably going to do the same thing over and over again.  Things that kill me:  Disappointment and guilt..

I never want people to feel disappointed in me and I hate having the feeling of guilt for doing something do others...

Burn it

Friday, July 07, 2006

Feeling burnt out? I know I am... lets start this lesson...

Just keep things on track. Theres always time for rest but try to keep it at a minimum. I only allow myself eight hours a night even if I was late the night before. Eight hours is more than enough sleep to get you through the day. Keep working on school and make sure that you dont procrastinate even though everybody does. Keep priorities straight, as long as you continue to do that, things will remain in shape. If you havent noticed, it is only when your priorities arent on par is when things go all wrong. My priorities are not in shape right now, Im putting too many things in front of school, more on the lines of free time. Keep your priorities straight, school may not be number one or even close to your priorities, but whatever they are, keep them on top and keep working at it! Otherwise, youll end up like me stressing the night before a HUGE project is due. Im kind of sad thought right now, I have no love interest at the moment. When I made the straw cover into the knot, I had no idea of what girl to think about... cause I had none, its been awhile since I had no interest in any girl, maybe the new freshman? But thats not important, remember, its things like that that make your priorities all crooked.

... if you fill up the jar with too much sand, there wont be enough room for the golf balls...

Never Stand Still

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

If youve noticed, my blogs have taken a turn to lessons rather than personal experiences.  I like the confidentiality of it this way while still providing lessons that I want people to learn =)

Get back in shape and stop sitting around!  Its summer, have a blast!  Seriously, theres no need to sit down and be sad and theres no reason to do nothing.  Get back into shape.  Go out and run!  Go out and swim!  Go to the beach and have a good time.  Try not to worry too much with all the drama.  The drama is there granted, but dont waste your summer thinking about it.  Sit back and relax, enjoy what time you have.  Im not worrying about girls right now and Im not worrying about drama, technically Im worrying about school.  Which leads to several important points.  Remember to keep your priorities straight.  Put things in the front before you worry about something.  That being said, get back in shape and stop laying around doing nothing.  Your getting fat.  Im getting fat.  Which is why Im getting back into shape.  Enjoy your summer, it is very short.  Especially you seniors.  My last summer as a senior was definitely memorable and Im making every summer memorable for now on.  Try your best to make every moment memorable.  Make videos, pictures, albums, etc.  whatever it takes to keep the memories.  I love making videos (Im in the process of creating a summer video).  Find a hobby and do it.  Whether its something musical (like what I enjoy doing on my free time) or simple.  Just keep going and doing something productive.  Always be productive.

That being said, go out and have fun!  Happy 4th of July.

DMX

Monday, July 03, 2006

So I read this really cool quote that got me thinking the other day, it went as follows:  If you love something, let it go, if it comes back to you, its yours.  If it doesnt, it never was.  A quote by DMX.  Shall I explain my two cents upon this topic?

There are many things that you may find to like or maybe even love in this world.  But as DMX said, try and let it go.  IF that thing that you love truly has the same feelings back to you, then that thing will come back.  Now I know that many of you may be thinking that this one thing is a girl or a significant other, but dont always think that way.  This thing could be anything.  But just for the sake of confusion, lets pretend that this one thing is in fact a significant other.  The hardest thing is letting go, and its true.  If you have a hard time letting go of that one special someone you may like because of so many coincidences in personality or happenings, then its of no surprise.  As I said in a speech a few days ago, just let it go.  Can you do it?  If it comes back, then its YOURS.  Sure, youll be sad if she doesnt come back but be happy that she is going after something that she loves and unfortunately it wont be you.  Its the hardest thing, ACCEPTANCE. Accept defeat and accept your losses.  Theres not much to evaluate on this quote, its pretty much self explanatory.  I just found it very interesting and useful with the many mishaps Ive had in life... it answered me so to speak...

Ive let go of many things in life that I didnt want to, and unfortunately none of them came back.  Hopefully in the future I will find something that will...

Stay Strong

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Spend each day as if its your last.  Cause it just might be.  Really though.  Go out as much as you can, spend each minute you can with someone, become really intimate with the close friends that you have.  Life is short, sometimes shorter than expected.  Lifes unfair, but fairness is absolutely boring.  BE UNFAIR.  Give more than you take until you have nothing.  Once youve given it all just let it go.  Forget the bad times and regret every minute.  Live a life of no regrets?  I live a life full of regret.  I regret not learning this, I regret not saying that, I regret not doing this so now Im going to go do it!  DO IT.  Always regret cause if you dont you are finished.  I dont regret doing [x] cause I never would have been able to do [y] if I did [x].  Well couldnt you have done more for [y]?  DO MORE.  Youve never done ENOUGH.  Never be content.  Always be excited!  Be anxious.  Make fun.  Never stand still.  Be afraid.  Be brave.  Lose with effort and win without pride but acknowledge your mistakes.  Live life to the fullest, live life with regrets, live life under pressure, and live life under limits and standards.  Keep your moral fiber strong and never let it break.  Go now and live life like theres not tomorrow full of regret, full of standards, and full of moral fiber.  Stay strong my friends...

... be humiliated and truly sorry for everything you have and havnt done...